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Reflective.

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 24, 2008, 4:29 AM
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Winter - Tori Amos & Hurt - Johnny Cash.
  • Reading: Looking for something good to read.
  • Watching: News.
  • Playing: World of Warcraft when i can be bothered.
  • Eating: When i can be bothered.
  • Drinking: water/juice,..allot of tea...
Hello there..

More then a year after my last entry..
Time´s passed fast..or slow..frankly i do not know.
Im now in a diffrent world, far away from The Netherlands.
Ive hit the 22nd year of my life and somewhat older and wiser and more hurt.
I guess while being in my reflective mood after yesterday night finally imploding under all the pressure and litterally shutting down completly, ive now come to a moment where its time to think things over.. take a step back and sit down to take a good look at it..
At moments like this i wish my stephfather was still here with me..in my heart i carry him but sadly not next to me.
Moments where you start to make lifedeciding descisions are scarey.. are confusing..
Ive been making them from a far to young age out of nessecity but not out of free will.
My well of ever positive is slowly running dry.. and a more calmer more reserved look on life is coming forward..am i maturing?
Will the scars of the past show? Of that im sure..im hurt will always be but im not sad..
Its just..there, like i used to to carry my heart on my sleeve.
In my mind i sit on the cold wintersbeach next to my Stephfather.. and have hour-long conversations with him.. but i cant hear the sound of those movies in my head.
At moments like that you realise how important parents are.. something where there is a more then Disturbing lack of in my life.
It left me scarred heavily and a bitterness for life, like a bad aftertaste in your mouth.
I hope someone in my head turns the volume up.
Im not sad.. but im deeply swimming in a sea of thought really.
care to swim with me? Be careful and dont drown. Even i while swimming have someone with me to pull me out of the water when i cannot hold myself up anymore..
Look Big Bear, im still here.. im still alive.
Will you come sit with me and talk for a while?

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 22, born on the 9th of January 1986 in Amsterdam, The netherlands.
  • Current Residence: Sweden, lived in The Netherlands, grew up for an few years in Australia..
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: M/L
  • Interests: Anime,World of Warcraft,Drawing,playing pcgames,reading,learning about ancient Japanese culture.
  • Favourite movie: City of angels, Underworld, Animatrix, Brokeback Mountain, The Promise.
  • Favourite band or musician: Aerosmith, Blöf, Santana, Johnny Cash, Tori Amos.
  • Favourite genre of music: 70's /60's rock..anything with emotion and a soul.
  • Favourite artist: Dorian Cleavenger, Luis Royo, Frank Cho, Adam Huges and David Mack.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, and frank Cho, my brother.
  • Favourite photographer: Sir Ravenmacabre, and Miss Boxedphoto's, anyone with to my opinion an good eye.
  • Favourite style of art: Anime, or realistic, if it looks good it is good.
  • Operating System: My hands... and brain, fingertips, smells, senses.
  • MP3 player of choice: PSP or my phone.
  • Shell of choice: Still no clue what that is.
  • Wallpaper of choice: Anything anime, or anything i find beautiful really..wich is a large area.
  • Skin of choice: My own, tattooed preferably.
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft, The Sims, life itself.
  • Favourite gaming platform: My computer or the PS2, PSP.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Cat-Woman, Brandy from Liberity Meadows.
  • Personal Quote: What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencils, aquarelpencils, Mirco pens.

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*dealsblankcards:icondealsblankcards: May 24, 2008, 10:34:39 AM
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~lpdisney:iconlpdisney: May 17, 2008, 4:31:48 AM
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~Nilala:iconNilala: Dec 6, 2006, 4:41:14 PM
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~hoffien:iconhoffien: Nov 27, 2006, 9:38:51 AM Mood: Joy
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